Well, it's been a while

I'm sure by now whoever stumbles upon this little page is either lost, or perhaps is a curious old friend wondering if I ever bother to update this thing anymore. Either way, hello, welcome and welcome back.

In a way, I suppose I am welcoming myself back, too. It's been quite a while since I last wrote, and I really have no excuses. Well, maybe a couple. June 2011 really took us all for a spin, and I haven't felt much like writing since.

Long story short: in the space of 3 weeks, I got a new job, got engaged, and got really bad news about a family member's health. I feel like I've squeezed more life into the last few months than I have in the last couple of years combined.

And it's funny, but it's like..all of these things that happen act as a sort of sieve, you know? Like everyone I know is a rock or a pebble or a speck of dust, all being shuffled through this net. It's really let me see who my Big Rocks are, whether it's just an "Are you still alive?" text or forcibly dragging me out to a bridal salon to pick out a dress. Each gesture, big or small, really does matter. Really. I know on the outside I might be panicked or pissed off or even apathetic...but they really do matter. So, not to get all sappy and gross, but...thank you. I know I haven't been the best at getting back in touch (or getting on gchat...OKAY OKAY I GET IT, I'm not on gchat very much even though I keep saying I will). Honestly, sometimes I just feel too fretful to talk. Some people are really good writers when they're sad or upset; I prefer to get overemotional while watching horrible television. (Yeah, I watched a lot of L&O: SVU. Yeah, it's made me cry. More than once. You wanna fight???) But really -- thanks.

So I guess the latest updates are: I quite like my new job, and am doing my best to become indispensable so I don't get laid off if the government shuts down. Tyler has moved to VA, so it's been good seeing him on a regular basis. Health issues...well, I don't want to jinx anything, but it does seem that the worst is behind us. My bridesmaids are keeping me on track with the wedding planning, bless them. I think I am an inherently lazy bride, and laziness + life craziness = one really apathetic bride. But I'm happy to report that I do have a wedding dress and all my girls have their dresses ordered! And Tyler and I did a cake tasting a few weeks ago, which I scheduled all by myself, thank you very much. Turns out this whole thing can be kind of fun! (Tyler: "I think that we should periodically pretend that we're engaged and planning a wedding so we can go get free cake.") (No, but seriously. It was delightful.)

I can't believe it's already the last month of 2011, especially with everything that's happened. I've been thinking about what I want to write in my year in review post, which is actually what prompted me to get on this blog tonight. It's been so long since I've thought about blogging, and it was kind of a pleasant return to normalcy. I found myself trying to remember things that happened in March or April, and testing out different phrases to see how they sounded.

In hindsight, I probably should not have done it aloud on the Metro during rush hour, but whatever, I still wasn't the creepiest person in the car. DC is full of freaks, yo.